Me & You

Not crazy-idiot-psycho

2010-05-05T10:25:00.001-07:00

A question that I wish to ask.An answer that I was hoping to get.
I know it sounds creepy but I can't seem to run away from it,who knows?or maybe god knows?It keeps bothering me since I was born,something that I'm not like the others?why?Am I being cursed?
Like others would say "you're just thinking too much".

But question is, "what am I?"
Normal humans?Angel?Devil?Demi god?
A success or a failure?

Out Here On My Own

2010-03-27T00:43:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | Irene Cara - Out Here Own My Own lyrics

Ashes to Ashes,Dust to Dust

2010-03-26T14:32:00.000-07:00

The memories we had,will cherish it,
there's nothing that my heart can do,coz i'm still stuck in the moment,
but,i will always be there for you when you need me.

It is time for me to go back to my old life,stuck with my assignment again,n enjoying my painful body n leg sprained.Shuang~

Ciaoz~

Random stuff

2010-03-09T12:24:00.000-08:00

I believe everything will be fine.
A bit of strength n support,I'll stay strong until my last breath.
This time I'll take it slow,maybe you'll return?

my obsession

2010-02-18T06:46:00.000-08:00

I miss everyone who is part of my life
<3 all ..

happy chinese new year

White lies will always remained

2010-01-21T19:48:00.000-08:00

Tionne - finishline

VERSE 1:

HERES THE NEWS, ILL BE HANGING UP MY TRACK SHOES, WONT BE DOING LAPS FOR YOU CAUSE YOU PROVED, THAT YOU COME FIRST, YOUR #1! AND THIS TIME IM LOSING YOU!

NOW YOURE FULL SPEED AHEAD, AND NOW I SHOULDNT HAVE SAID A LOT OF THINGS THAT I SAID, I REGRET IT. SINCE YOU WANNA BE GONE, ILL BE LAYING IN BED UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND, HOPE YOU GET IT.

CHORUS:

I WONT BE RUNNING AFTER YOU AND I WONT CHASE YOU DOWN THE STREET, I WONT BE CALLING OUT YOUR NAME THIS TIME, ITS GOTTA BE HARD TO BELIEVE , THAT IM NOT RUNNING AFTER YOU, I WONT BE LOSING ANY SLEEP, I WONT TELL YOU TO SLOW YOUR ROLL THIS TIME CAUSE NOW IM AT THE FINISHLINE

FINISHLINE, IM AT MY FINISHLINE, FINISHLINE, FINISHLINE YEAH

VERSE 2:

GIRL ITS TRUE, I USE TO TIGHTEN UP MY LACES SWEAT AND PACE AROUND THE ROOM, WE ARGUE, THEN YOU WILL BE ON THE RUN, ALWAYS JUMPING THE GUN, WE RESTART AND TRY TO MAKE IT NEW, NOW YOUR FULL SPEED AHEAD AND YEAH I SHOULDNT HAVE DID A LOT THINGS THAT I DID, I REGRET IT, YOU SAID YOURE ALONG, AND I DONE HEARD IT BEFORE SO ILL BE CLEARING MY HEAD TILL YOU GET IT

CHORUS:

I WONT BE RUNNING AFTER YOU AND I WONT CHASE YOU DOWN THE STREET, I WONT BE CALLING OUT YOUR NAME THIS TIME, ITS GOTTA BE HARD TO BELIEVE , THAT IM NOT RUNNING AFTER YOU, I WONT BE LOSING ANY SLEEP, I WONT TELL YOU TO SLOW YOUR ROLL THIS TIME CAUSE NOW IM AT THE FINISHLINE

FINISHLINE, IM AT MY FINISHLINE, FINISHLINE, FINISHLINE YEAH

BRIDGE:

STANDING HERE AGAIN, MY ADRENALINE, ITS COOL, BUT ITS YOU CATCHING YOUR SECOND WIND, WHEN YOURE TIRED ILL BE HERE, WELL LETS HOPE THAT IM STILL HERE, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, I CANT KEEP RUNNING

CHORUS:

I WONT BE RUNNING AFTER YOU AND I WONT CHASE YOU DOWN THE STREET, I WONT BE CALLING OUT YOUR NAME THIS TIME, ITS GOTTA BE HARD TO BELIEVE , THAT IM NOT RUNNING AFTER YOU, I WONT BE LOSING ANY SLEEP, I WONT TELL YOU TO SLOW YOUR ROLL THIS TIME CAUSE NOW IM AT THE FINISHLINE

..It's too late to apologize..

2010-01-20T10:41:00.000-08:00

It's 2010,thought it's getting better than i ever thought of.But?Turns out it's getting tougher n gave up.Now,I want to spread it out.

I don't give a damn if i had offence to you or what,and you know what,have you ever thought of how we had been through from the past?Stayed up all nights to train your char n rather skipping meals?Like what the heck after i think about it,how can i be so stupid n trusted someone that ends up lying n cheating?What you gave,i'm giving it all back.I dont want end up hearing rumours saying that using your money.I'm sorry i had enough all these shyts.You solo chiongster right?wait for my school holidays n get better cpu/laptop,i'll fight you.5-10 characters?no problem man~i can do better than you.

And i don't know why i've plan the things just for us,and you blew it just like that.We've been trying so fucking hard to be there for you,just you but noone else that had in mind?Owh my fucking god!Our heart has already broken deeper,and now we can't even describe or say anything then being ignore by someone that we loved n cared all along.

i never ask for repaying favour,all i'm asking is that think wisely before asking questions or saying anything to me.

Whoever involve in this shyts n turns out buey song to what i type,fucker~you can find me =) coz you had step into my limit. _|_ Asshole

Ah gong~ now it's just you n me again,no more believing nor trusting anyone but ourselves. <3

People who have this >> _|_ << are sucks,copy that~

Peace Out B)

Love drunk

2009-12-15T14:04:00.000-08:00

It's starting again,.and it's driving me crazy..I'm going to change my appearance and dressing..Here i come =) ..
Hoping for miracle in 1209

B.C.D

2009-11-04T09:24:00.000-08:00

-Lappy formated..i'm lost..
-Ah gong,forgive me,.i do have reasons..please get more rest..
-Kor,please get some rest whenever there's time..
-Ohanas(some),whatever it happens just let it be,everyday noisy there about nonsense,especially eugene.
-"Someone",you hurt me..

Lastly,yes~i admit,i'm fucking lost..will prove it that i'm still strong..blame myself for mess up everything..i'm sorry..

Blur-ed . Confused . Depressed

Blank Thoughts

2009-10-28T00:40:00.000-07:00

Looking out the window,it was a raining day..felt so calm and blank,.I wonder why..like something is bothering me,i dont feel stress about my studies,.but felt stress & depress from the software that i can't learn,.i had been taught over and over again,but my brain doesnt seem to activate from remembering..
I wish that i cant learn it faster and capable to control the software,.so that i wont bother nor interrupt my senior friends,.everyday-every minute,ideas comes and goes,.it's because i still cant control well the software..it's like a switching skills between my classmates,.
I'm tired of stupid in softwares..it bothers me alot...

and..i love rice xD

Another day,Another bugs,Another Tears

2009-09-20T02:27:00.000-07:00

Nothing to talk about..but i would like to dedicate this song to Kor.

Yoz!

2009-09-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

i'm back peeps!miss me?
well,it had been a "long" while,lot's of things happened that i never thought it would?owh well~leave the past behind,carry on what's ahead of me,gambateh!!Yea yea,i believe i can do it..(i think).
alrighty,nothing to talk about anymore,take care my dear friends ^^

Need a short break

2009-05-12T09:39:00.000-07:00

i love you all very much..
to ah gong(gin),kor,ben,moon and everyone..

i will come back again when i'm more stable ok?
please dont hate me for mia in a sudden,
do forgive me..

Our friendship will treasure always and never forget..
miss you guys..take care

what the F?

2009-05-09T09:00:00.000-07:00

This afternoon just back from k.k,stayed 3 days 2 nights..well,didnt had that much of fun,but still,i'm glad that Step and Tsc were there to accompany me,eventhough they are quite busy,.bought him a t-shirt and a box for peace,.thought of giving him today,but another friend was in the car,so..didnt get to pass to him,.before reaching to working place,he counselling me infront of KM again,haiz..at cyber,saw him keep sms-ing..

Why?For?Because?

2009-05-06T04:59:00.000-07:00

Tell me to be this and that,do this and that,because this and that..

Silent heartbeat

2009-05-05T08:51:00.000-07:00

Listened an hour of namo & hallelujah speech for judging me..maybe i am the ONE like all of'em said..i'll give up on defending myself already..what rumours you guys just heard,just think it's true..it's hard defending alone with all..i dont either never ask for anyone to support me because i dont need one,.Once there's a backstabber,the rumours still going on..And yea~what for argue more?Let the time tells everything about the truth.

PS:
thanks ben for the song.Let's dedicate to ourselves.

Message to everyone..especially to him too

2009-05-04T11:15:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry..I was selfish..

Constantly reminding you..you are being loved by me

2009-05-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

Am i doing the right thing?or am i wrong?
Things had happened and i never look back.
I'm sorry that i scolded you just now,
but just wanted you to understand for not getting wrong with my personality.
Pleasing you to think wisely-honestly-loyalty,
or you can just end up with the things you can never solve.

Giving you a chance to revenge for what i've done to you for the past few years
I DESERVES IT my love..

Before listen to the song,turn the volume lower abit,the bass damn rough =.=*

TAYLOR SWIFT YOU ROCKZ!!YOU SANG OUT THE WORDS THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO SAY TO HIM!!

Begining just like the ending

2009-05-02T22:08:00.000-07:00

Alot of things happened these few days..all my plans corrupted and needed to be cancelled..i just found out that,when you're in pub,you can do whatever you like,as in your soulmate were there hugging with bunch of strangers,holding their hands running around..as for me,just silent there drinking while watching at him,.since he can do whatever he wants,when i go k.k..i'll do the same thing,i dont care..i wanna know how it feels playing with strangers,.Owh well,if i really got guts to do it,.i'm just too loyal to my soulmate,.sucks..(The happy moment about last night is that,you came to me hug me and hold my hands,but too bad..you were drunk..i guess you dont know what you had done anyway)

mei09 is under frustration circumstances

Chris Brown~you are so Riiight!!!

2009-05-01T08:18:00.000-07:00

Confuse..

2009-04-30T12:22:00.001-07:00

I'm not..me anymore?

I'm guilty

2009-04-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

I want to apologize to everyone that always be there for me especially Gin,Kor and Ben..I'm sorry that i seldom replying the message from you guys,.I'm very blank..like plain papers..i dont know where to begin neither stop.Just blame on me for my bad behaviour these days..I really dont know what to do and what to say or even how to explain to you guys..I deserve it well enough..Thank you and bye..

tempo MIA~

2009-04-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

Yoz~sorry all,for not updating my blog these few days,kinda busy and lazy to update,.i'll try to recall back about what i've been doing again lately..

26/04
Well,after work went to watch the boys match,Keningau vs Tenom,it was interesting,because the points keep go on and on,lots of times the both teams had the same points,.rough match ~.~ the opponents play rough till hurt alot of Keningau boys,luckily they able to hold on till the last second,.Keningau only ahead of Tenom about 5/6 points..so yea,Keningau won ^^ after the match,went to NEW STAR CAFE,me and KM having dinner with his mom and aunt from Sandakan,.then Step called forcing me to tell her which brand of chocolate/milk/maggie need because my Kor force them to buy for me ~.~ around 8.3p.m+,went to cyber play L4D with my bro and his friends,gosh..they improve alot,we cant even get through them the sometimes =.= 11p.m+,back home play facebook restaurant city,sms with kor till 3a.m+ then went to bed.

27/04
Woke up around 12p.m+ i think,Step called and ask me to go out meet them,suprised..Step,Tsc and Joyce came back just to send the things for me that my Kor bought ~.~ speechless* chit chat at my home awhile then went out have lunch with'em,Kor ask Tsc to bring me go eat,.ate Roti Canai and ABC at restaurant[childhood friends dad cafe]..then went to chinese temple on mountain,3.30p.m+ went to Bunsit[best bbq spot/camping/swimming in the big river],after that back home rest an hour,7.30p.m Step fetch me,i wanna treat them to steamboat,and yea..mission failed,late 1 step to pay the bills,TSC PAID!!ARGH!!!I ate alot till stomache,hahas..travel to alot places,because TSC want to see the Keningau view,but..all mountain cafe closed,.end up went to Tsc's hotel[Hotel Juta],Tsc and Step went to buy some chicken wings and 7E de tiger beer =.= only drink 3 cans i think O.o dont remember,i was tired and drink nia while watching tv with'em..1a.m+ back home,continue play facebook and sms with Kor,went to bed fall alseep..

28/04
Woke up around 11a.m+,amazingly..i had nightmares make me cant sleep longer,.play facebook and wait for Step to call for lunch,.12.p.m+ with'em go to Keningau Cafe eat Roti Kahwin,haha..,paid my phone bills and his,both total 265.30 bucks,dont know how long i never paid =.= then shop at Rakyat,see if there's any psp games selling but NO,hahas..continue shop again..back to my house,from 2-3p.m+,Tsc help me install alot of programmes that i needed then they go back to K.K le,received a call from him about boss want me and KM go to work earlier,hahas..3.30p.m-7.30p.m,damn..now i'm home,.tired ~.~ okay that's all,i go eat maggie cup and play facebook le..

P.S:
Hope Tsc had fun in Keningau,well..maybe a lil?I guess she enjoyed the freaking hot weather here,hahas XD and sorry that i'm not able to bring her to explore the Taman Pertanian in Tenom,overslept this morning =x

Rushing day..

2009-04-25T09:34:00.000-07:00

EDITED*
Been doing house chores today,wash the clothes+plates,again and again..4p.m boss called,want me to go to work right away,think alot need to type ~.~ geez..quickly take a cool bath,prepare myself plus wet hair,ask my dad to fetch me and KM to work,.glad we're able to rush to work on time,there..almost 2x+ papers on table,quickly type..damn..i can feel my fingers cramping,so He came after that one of the partner came again..keep on having conversations with'em,so that wont remind me of my cramping fingers,.sad thang is that..the pastry restaurant that i usually went there with my sis to buy chocolate cakes right,the youngest son of their child died..i dont know what it caused the death,didnt listen well what my partners said.. *Rest in peace*

After our work,about 7.30p.m,went to basketball hall,watch my friends having match with the other team[Tenom]..my dad and uncle sat on stage,shouting at us to join the game,want us make the game more interesting,yea~drag quite a long time,ask KM fetch me home to get my shoes,guess what?Everyone had alot of fun watching us,hahas..but they never comment anything bad about our performance,they knew that we seldom play ball already..hahas..last period,ST and the others scared that we might win them,because we kept on scoring points,not me lah ~.~ i dont want,just keep assist them and steal the ball for'em..so ST and the others play rough with us,we never revenge on anything just let it go~the Tenom coach ask why we didnt come earlier,we can help'em win the game,hahas..owh well,it's alright,at least we had fun and we sweat alot =.=

8.30p.m+,back home take a quick bath and lie on sofa rest..then He called to ask me if wanna have dinner outside,so yea..quickly dry my hair then went to fetch him,.after that KM came to meet us,sat there and chit chat till 12a.m just now..still okay,eventhough my darn headache still there,.yaiks..that's all ^^

owh yea,i forgot to tell you guys that,i catch the baby chickens =.= nabeh..so hard to catch,i was hanging the wet clothes,then i listen where the "chipp chipp" sound came from,then go to the empty pond,saw 3 baby chickens there,i grab a clothe went down catch them out,.like you racing horse,running circle there =.= almost faint because the weather sibeh hot tiam..i think it took about 5+ minutes to save them,.argh!

"Confusing" between us,I'm not giving up if you tell me you feel the same way too.

Chubby cicak!!EUWWWW!!!

2009-04-24T09:31:00.000-07:00

Last night,I was going to bed,something moved beside my bed,i went to get a closer look,guess what?CICAK!!okay,i'm not scared of it,because it's not a cockroach =x .So,it hide under the small cupboard,i move the it then the cicak run under it,cmk..it took me quite a long time to look for it..prepare tissue,aim le then *bapp* ,it moves,shock me..then i think.. O.o (owh yea,i forgot to spray before i catch) lolz?then i spray like few times,doesnt move..lost it,keep search,it stick under the mirror bottom,thought it's dead,because its body slimmy because of the spray,okay.. *bapp* again with tissue,went downstairs STEADY lah konon~my bro watching tv downstairs,.here's the conversation with my bro..

Me:boy,i catch tiok the cicak,what am i going to do with it?
Bro:Owh yea,i saw it this afternoon,i lost it.Throw it in the garbage can.
Me:what if it crawls out?i dont want to catch it already.
[CICAK move]*
Me:OMG!Boy!it moves!EEEKKKKKK!!how how how?!?!
Bro:Flush in the toilet!!
Me:Help me open the door,quick!it moves again!!EEEEEKKKKK!!!!!
[Bro run downstairs open the door]*
[Cicak move]*
Me & bro:EEEKKK!!!
[Almost drop the cicak,Squeeze tightly]*
Bro:throw into the toilet bowl!!
Me:Okay okay!!
[Bro and I inside the toilet,watching it flush]*

MISSION COMPLETE!!It's my first time catch tiok alive one and it's CHUBBY =.= continue off to bed,keep think of it,laughing in the room alone XD because the reaction with my bro very funny bah ~.~

Today,mapling awhile then watch tv whole day,took my nap from 6p.m-9p.m,tio disturb ~.~ watch tv again and sms with Ah Gong[Gin],Kor and Ben..Ah Gong morning will be going to listen the law speech,good luck with the 5 hours you stuck there,wahahaha!next time my turn =.= gosh...And Kor going to Kuching to meet his grandpa's client,for 3 days..ke lian,he didnt get enough rest and need to do lots of business again..i can't do anything,but just cheering him..KOR JIA YOUUUU!!!Be strong okay ^^ muackssss!

Everytime I wakes up,hoping to see you beside me.
I miss you.

Keep away from keyboard today~

2009-04-23T09:51:00.000-07:00

It's already 12p.m+ ,still sleepy~didnt had enough sleeps i think.I've been watching tv the whole day,lazy mapling.Night time,didnt take dinner,because no car for me to drive,everyone was out,and noone ask me about my dinner =.= never mind~luckily i'm not that hungry,called my dad and ask that what time he'll be coming back,so that i can go out yam cha and eat satay with him and KM.10p.m+ dad back home,prepare then fetch them both to Restaurant DreamLand,order 5 satays and nasi pulut for myself,while the both of them only order drinks.I thought will be boring today,but it wasnt so bad.Well,i dont know why i was so hyperactive,keep blabbing bunch of disgusting and stupid stuffs,hahas ^^ almost made them puke.He was sitting infront of me and KM sitting beside me,they dont want to look at me because i keep doing some disgusting looks,hahahas!Okay~satay serves,quickly eat it,i dont like the fish smells,the fish that havent been cook,dead fish..the restaurant only nearby the pasar,so..you get what i mean ~.~

He told us that if we wanna go to China with him and work which his relatives there,but his relatives in China,.darn rich =.= well,maybe next year,havent so sure about it..i dont wanna get killed by someone right?So,his dad was in China now with his aunts and uncles,his dad called him and talked about what his doing and eating there..it's like he's a VIP there,dont need to do anything,got maid serve him there~enjoying and unexpected,hahas..the three of us can't even imagine it =.= Cant wait to go there,hahas..after that he talked about his brother that doesnt think wisely about his future and everything,his brother like goes easy and doesnt care about money that he needs for his studies in overseas.Chit chat lots of stuffs,.pay the bills..because i want to pee =s so quickly sent them both back.Alot police cars i saw today,luckily bo tio caught ~.~

Kor went to bar drink beer,worried about him,because suddenly went missing,didnt reply me..have been asking him what had happen lots of times,he's not telling,then lazy want to ask le..damn pissed..Well,hopefully everything can go well there..at least get few hours of rest will be okay le..And yea,forgot to miss call Ben at 8a.m F3,i want to disturb her bah but failed,because i was sleeping like a dead body,didn't listen tiok any noisy sounds,hahas..Owh yea,i was shock that KM broke up with gf,i dont know what's wrong with the girl suddenly reply KM's message like " O " nia~KM ask me not to tell him about it,so i just shut..but the way KM talking,alike Him..what can i say,good friends,the lines were the same,no comment about them =.= reminds me bunch of shyts before..O E O E OOOOOOOO~okay,brain washed*

Okay,that's all for today ^^ cant think of anything le..Take care peeps..

Tired of being sorry when i'm the one been hurt so badly,still,
I cherished every moments that i had spent with you.

I'm so bored

2009-04-22T12:15:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to do today,because Kor went to Kuching this afternoon to meet the state president for the BB thingy,then tomorrow he's going to KL again for some meeting i think,dont know how to say ~.~ ,nothing to do in maple,login awhile then watch tv and wait for my working time =x After work,back home watch tv about an hour,went out with him and KM to cyber again,kinda boring,because only play few rounds,the last mission all die ~.~ stupid tank,hit me fall from the buildings,KM also XD hahahahas!After that he and his bro solo tank,end up both tio hit by zombies till lying on the ground~

Going back home at 11p.m+ ,he used to sent me back home first one,but today need sent KM back first because i need take the list of the players names for my dad,this Saturday and Sunday got tournament for under 20 years-old,i wish to play but i cant take leave..one of the partner going to Dubai for honeymoon,.damn..not every year got the tournament one,but..haiz..just forget about it then,rather than being backstab from someone else..Okay,only he and i in the car,it's kinda weird because i dont know why,i was like thinking some stupid conversations with him ~.~ dont know that if i made him laugh or enjoy what..hahas..dont dare to look at him..

Home~on maple,bring bygones get scarlion helm,and yea..she had it,grats ^^ surprisingly..my Kor online,hahas XD he found out that there's a cable in his room,he quickly online to accompany Gin and I.Chit chat and playing with our "DUCKS" that he bought for Gin and I,hahas..big head tiny body ~.~ after that Gin went to bed,Kor's reading his documents,i miss called Ben,wahahaha!disturb tiok her from sleeping,she on maple diao me and the others,lolz? =P nothing to do mah,meh miss call her lur~

Ok,that's all for now..waiting for Kor to finish reading his documents then we off to bed le ~.~ GAMBATEHHHHH~huat ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! *fainted*

I'm giving you unlimitted chances to be honest and trustable when you need it.
My heart doesnt belongs to me anymore,but belongs to you forever.

Shocking day ~>~

2009-04-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.30a.m+ ,read everyone's blog,then on maple..keep running around and login different character,still bored..because kor busy for the JPJ thingy,.then i watch tv and wait till 1p.m.So,1p.m take a cold bath,prepare for the next tournament[this time is Tenom vs Keningau] at 2p.m,dad asked me to go and look after the youths doing their job,scared got mistakes and causes alot problems ~.~ Waiting for him and KM to come fetch me,didnt notice that they came earlier,so i rush everything to prepare,hair still wet =.= reached the court,arrange the table official equips,I thought KM and I gonna be the referee,but the lecturer told us that he invited a Tenom and a Keningau adults to be the referee,KM and I pissed off if not we can just stay at home,damn boring =.=

First match is females game,fcking boring!My friends didnt get to break the record from getting 100+ points above,they play kinda relax,.the opponent girls were like..ah sam selling butts~their voices it's creeping me out =.= i quickly on music to listen.Second match is Guys game,kinda shock+pissed,because of the Tenom referee unfair,i'm the one record the scores and the fouls,so i know the whole scene..i'm not a legal referee,but i know what fouls been made..and the Tenom referee got himself a name,everyone called him "International referee",he went to NBA tournament and be referee before..If so,how come so unfair to treat my hometown boys?You rather help your hometown than being fair?That is so fck up =.= Keningau referee need to go fetch his kids from school,so i ask KM to be referee,and i was glad that KM in there watch everything carefully.KM saw alot of the illegal fouls and she blow it,i record the fouls.I should've ask KM to be the referee for the boys match,so that both teams can play in a fair game and more exciting.Too bad,Keningau boys lost the match..the Tenom referee broke their spirits,made them play the game like da bian =.= 20+ points behind from Tenom.Damn..If the referee being unfair in my game,i sure will hurt the opponent damn seriously..I dont wanna be rude to the international referee,but you like kena rasuah..zz

4.30p.m,finished..went down to cyber with KM and the young players..they all jio me to play L4D,since i'm bored at home,i might as well go with them..Playing with them,can laugh till faint le,because they're funny and ben ben de XD shoot ownself mates and simply bang everything,lolz?hahahas!!Played till 6p.m plus i think,ask my bro to sent me back because KM and the others cars will be very late,so i'm going back first.8p.m went out tapau for my dad and sis,while waiting,went to market buy bunch of grocery things and it cost me about 72 bucks,lolz?hahahas!Back home,texted him whether he wanna go out bo,but then keep saying dont know and drag till 9p.m plus,i lazy then said no need le..suddenly i text him that my love for him will never change =.= damn it,.stupid me..i'm such an idiot..

MSG with him:
me:nothing to talk le?
him:no ah,just now count things.
me:owh,.okay
him:i didnt lie you,you dont believe as you like then.
me:i didnt say anything =.=
him:i not dont want msg you this few month,i thought you will understand why i will like that,you wont understand,never mind ba.
me:i know you busy,that's why i didnt keep text you.You and KM usually talk,i didnt talk much,so i dont know anything except you busy working.
him:KM also dont know,you wont understand,never mind,you go play game ba.
me:Can tell me mah?at least i can understand the whole situations.
him:understand?many time i ask you and call you do,but you think another way,so i better stop advise,i do that just because dont want get say,and you terbalik get say also.
me:okay,dont need say le..you finish work direct sleep then ok.

I'm not causing some arguements with you,it's because i can't understand perfectly what i should do.I did believe you,but you keep breaking me apart from your actions.Tell me what am i suppose to do?It's not easy forcing myself living without you neither stop texting you oftenly.I dont wanna talk about it anymore....I rather kept myself shut instead of quarrel with you..

It hurts..
to tell you how i felt
to know white lies from you
being alone without you
telling lies just to see you
that you judge me from the outside

Breaking apart..Feel like crying harder in pain..

2009-04-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

Sorry all,.didnt update my blog about 3/4 days?Don't remember =x okay,i'm back to blogging..I follow Justin's style then

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DONE.Lolz?Hahaha..just kidding ~.~ alrighty,i'll try to recall back what i've been doing lately and what had happened.So,I've been spamming moon and my kor's char,both now already level 108.Clap clap ^^ Next target will be Gin's hermit,I'll help her level till 108 also =D Then i will bring the spammer to skele,hahas.Okay,that's all about mapling leveling.Now,there's alot of STUFFS?Happened,.well..can say that it's sad and shock?First is that,Fishy aka dodo aka mop,suddenly MIA,she told me that her exam coming soon so she need to study hard in it,but I guess there must be some other reasons that makes her decission to MIA,well..Mop,I hope you know what you are doing,please take good care of yourself alright?Thumbs up* ..And,I don't know why Sakai starting MIA in maple again ~.~ hope she's okay..muacks!

Second thing is that,grats..I got my girlfriend(period) back ~.~ during work,I just faster do my job and keep drink water,because not feeling very well because of my period,.after work,in my car,he told me that our aunt finding me,he ask me to give our aunt a call,but i don't have our aunt number,i ask him to say out the number,he said too fast le,i cant catch up what is he saying,i ask about lots of times,because i seriously dont know what is he saying right..then his tones slowly louder and louder,then i pissed off and scold TMD,can mention slow bo,i can't listen clearly enough mah.Then he scold me that my mouth very pro in saying vulgars le and so on and so forth,.WTH lah?!KM was at the back,can't you think first before scolding?I did told you before that something's wrong with my ears right?zz..after that my stomach very pain and I can't feel my legs,.totally cramp..so i ask him to drive..then he ask me wanna go peace bo,i said any..i thought we went to our usual spot,but then,we aren't..he drive to our aunt house..i was seriously in pain,but i just hold on there,and stick at the wall,starting to feel abit dizzy and half fainting..but he was still talking there,and play with the baby,.and i was there in pain and waiting for you..after that i buey tahan i told him that "can we go back?i'm starting to faint out already",so we left..asked him to drive me to market buy modest =.= never talked much in car because trying to stay awake,he's at home le,so i'm going to sent KM back,.after that,i faint out awhile while driving =.= luckily there's no car on the road,keep slapping and pinch myself,.arrived home then change modest,msg Gin and Ben that i'm going to sleep.

Third one,my kor told me that his grandpa wanna sent him away to study and working in overseas,i was like..so shock..and felt heart broken somehow,because i only get to know him few months only,and he have to go so far away from Malaysia,.Well,i don't blame nor stop him,because his family followed the old fashion way,he's the only grandson,so his grandpa need him to take over the company.So,he have to give up his dreams in music for the sake of their family.I asked him whether he can try to convince them not to sent him away because he dont want to go,.now his whole family mad about him,.and it's all because of me that i ask him to talk to them..i'm so selfish,.never think before telling him what to do..I will pray harder for you from now on..Kor,you're not dissapointing Gin and I,we still love you and we had so much fun when you're around.I wish to go Aussie with you,I dont wanna stay here..because,.i want him to have his freedom without i'm around..Bring me with you please T.T

Lastly,not every day it's a perfect day to us,.Now Ben moody le,wonder what happen to her today...Justin,you're back into school le,must study hard okay?Don't make yourself dissapointed ^^

Some of the songs that I would like to share with you all..

WALDO'S PEOPLE-LOSE CONTROL

AKON-FREEDOM

林健輝-我聽見有人叫你寶貝 (I dedicated this to..)

<3Ah gong[Gin],Kor[Nick],Ben[Miko],Sakai[Sha],Joo dar,..Him...

....

2009-04-18T12:42:00.001-07:00

Tired,.sad..

The perfume from someone is killing me f5

2009-04-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 9a.m,the perfume smell from someone..fuiyoh =.= i can faint during my dreams le,.lying on bed about 30 minutes,buey tahan wake up and brush teeth,wash face,then on maple ~.~ use 1 laptop and 2 coms,lolz..because i want moon level also,so i on hers and find a spammer for her,grats..well,only up 3 levels grats moon on levle 80 =x Gin de,like about..5 levels?lolz,.after that she spam her hermit le..grats on level 97/98 ah gong XD ..Around 8p.m plus,went out,with him and KM,go cyber play left4dead,kinda bored today,don't know why..maybe my bro and his friends never play with us,hahahaha XD back home no maple,.heard from Ben that saying about shutting down the Ohana family,.so i think the trip just cancel bah,kinda confusing..I dont wanna seen anyone saying around us that outsider or what,because i dont really care if i were in the family or not,.i just hopes that every maple friend of mine could come and spend times together having fun in the island XD well..just wait then,if it really possible for everyone ^^ nothing to say le,nighty night all XD muacksssssssssssssssssssss

PS:
Kor,good luck on your concert tomorrow okay?Dont remind yourself about the cut you had just now,think of the sweet things between you and your BABE XD hahahaha..or you can think of in maple having fun with us that time ^^ good memories makes everything goes smoothly~hahas..I will pray that everyone will love kor and your bands performance ^^ let us do the encore.. O E O E O E O!!!!!! =P

Tired =.=

2009-04-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

Tell you guys something..that..today i woke up at 9a.m leh O.o is it amazing?Yes,IT IS!wahahahaha!Everyone de message like,so EARLY de O.o lolz..But,the most thing that pissed me off is that,.stupid maple de hackshield!Say what since 3a.m they fix till 8.30p.m,and we[me,gin,kor] waited since morning till even i'm off from work,damn right?Argh..There's a good news too,that..i got scarlino helm le XD thanks to yoshi's for the batch slot,and ah gong with kor for paying the batch service,.stats still okay,but will going for rehelm again..Today i felt that kinda weird,i never talk much with him and KM,even during work,they all talk to me,and i was like..yea yea,no,er,ok...lolz..Maybe still broken-ing,but i'm still standing up to face it..Wooooo~

Just now went out take tapau,no parking near the restaurant,i almost went in the wrong restaurant =.= i stop and look at the sign properly then turn.. =.= after that,i went to my uncle's big market,grab 1 basket,and walk to the chocolate spot,guess what..DAILY MILK SOLD OUT!Never mind,at least can buy soya bean back home drink,and yea..3 counters nia,long queue,.the customers are not carrying basket but TROLI =.= I was so mad,i went to the basket place and throw back to it's place..Went in the car,there's no cars crossing behind,so i reverse the car,reverse till half way..this idiot bitch suddenly came out of no where speeding and horn-ing me far far away,i stop-he stop,i move-he move,WTF?If i have licence,trust me,i argue with you infront of the crowds bah,cmk..if your car smashed to my dad's car,your car become like piece of crackers okay?!I reverse and speed away back home,.Reach home le never mind..he said want go cyber,so i wait and wait for his reply,he just said dont want..he got alot of work to do,thought can see him again..hahas..i'm such an idiot right? XD Okay,that's all for now..sleeping time,nighty night ^^

Boring,.never went out ~.~

2009-04-14T09:35:00.000-07:00

Hmm,.today,went to boss the 1st round with the divinity members,I thought can down but..i guess i was wrong XD first round kinda stupid,1 level 162 hero arrive there and said,went twice,that time all of us were already inside =.= so they end up just go ahead,let's see..next,the bs died because of the Seduce skill,she dont know how to control it,after that,the bm died because never pot himself,left me-I.L-viper solo,then i died because never set the hp alert properly =x ..2nd round,viper left us[Joy and I],so i ask my kor,maple dar and alex[gin's friend] to help me,and another 132 NL stranger..When B3,i think about half of the boss hp,slowly 1 by 1 died..especially the one i died because i tio send back to window again and again,i put the pots in HOME button,first time like this =.= or maybe some buttons are stuck?eee.. Joy just revived me and i died,guess how many the HP % left?like 1% nia!!ARGH!!Damn it..pissing me off..owh well,never mind..there is still another chance anyway,and Gin aka ah gong will always there to protect me XD WAHAHAHA!But not just her,my kor also there to help me XD WAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Well,today didnt go cyber/lan,because he needs to rush his work..If i go with KM,like..seriously,dont feel like talking,imagine you are talking to air somehow,got birds flying around tiam =.= I want to go cyber/lan alone de,but then..still bored,.noone accompany me laughing and shouting there..later alone shouting and laughing there like insane people,those gamers around you will keep starring one =.= never mind,try tomorrow night then..

GRATS Nick aka my kor leveled till 105 XD JY JY!!!HUAT AHHHHHHHHHHH

Alrighty all,i'm off to bed now,panda eyes very clearly =.= Night all,.Ah gong,jia you in leveling your hermit ^^

Stabbing my heart F3

2009-04-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

Grats my kor leveled till 103 XD ,woohooo!Around 3p.m plus,suddenly no current in a short time,and yea..it had been 2 days le,rain awhile after that again,around 3.30p.m got current le then continue help my kor training =x ..8.30p.m,Went out yam cha with KM,while waiting for him off from work.So,at restaurant,chit chat some funny craps,lolz..*ROFL* ..Heard my friend said that they received a message saying about tsunami going to happen in Sabah =.= wtf..I dont know if i'm going to believe it or not,but noone knows right =.= huh..hopefully not,just peaceful..At 10p.m,he came to join us awhile,and then we off to cyber to play L4D with my bro and his friends,at first I don't feel like seeing-talking-laughing with him,but after a circling thoughts,I guess I should just do it,instead of spoiling the so-called weather =.= Okay,It sounds like i'm full of frustrating again,damn it..it's challenging me,but..won't stop me.And hor,I've been keep eating lots of junks..no no no!I dont want get fat le lah F5!!!Control*

PS:
Ben,don't say me like that leh =.= you are making me think of myself miserable and so on..I really don't know anything good about me,I just hopes that I can be bad,nothing can stop me from doing anything,.I wish to be bad..I really really really wish to be bad..I know it's not reasonable but i really want it to happen on me..I'm so tired of treating good and soft-hearted to whom I love..You guys dont even understand me at all,I'm always a bad girl..evil thoughts and so on!ARGHHH!!I dont know what should I need or must do.Study?work?or..am I just worst in everything?I guess so..

I'M VERY USELESS IN THE FAMILY-FRIENDSHIP-LOVEMATTER

Same old days~haiz..

2009-04-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

Last night have 2 parties to attend,1 is that going to steamboat with my secondary school classmates,and the other one is that a simple party that secondary school de friend open.Sadly,the steamboat cancelled,because 1 of my classmate,Jenny, don't want to attend,maybe because of her practical work kinda tough or what,I don't blame her.So,after my work,he never told me that he's going for the party,so I just stayed at home and wait for him to message me to confirm whether he's going or not.Guess what,I had waited for him to message till 1.am plus,maybe he was sleeping or what.So I didnt even bother him.

This morning,he never message again.So I just wait for the time for our work,I get on his car,went to fetch another friend to work also,just right after my friend,KM,in car,.they started to talk about last night that they attend to the party,what they did and so on.I was like,very sad,he never message me because he was at the party,what games they playing,were so funny and so on and so forth.Huh..After work,I said about last night what I did at home,he just notice that my steamboat party was cancelled.So,he never ask me why I never tell him about it.After Few seconds,They continue to talk their own craps again.Excuse?Fucking pissed lah!You guys make me think that I was talking to air!

Seriously,why you never tell me that you going to the party?okay,maybe I will spoil the mood of yours?Or you never even think about me actually?How does it feel if i'm treating you the same thing?I had waited for your god damn message!?Don't say I always complain,I already being very sincere enough to you,being gentle to you.You even dare to judge me from what I am to the not me you talking about okay??Lemme tell you something,haven't you finish judged me enough yet?If it so,go ahead,I don't want to explain anymore,it's not like you care about it anyway.Always about the other girl,then tell me why did you want me back again??I'm not a whore!You made me feel like i'm so useless okay,.just stop hurting me from your evil side..you took my heart away,how can i get it back so easily..
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Okay,here's another joke[1st part],KM told me just now about that day,the last day,of the tournament,after finished giving the speech and the trophy.KM,ST,and their players were standing outside waiting for their cars.The malay girls[Some TB],went on to ask them about their numbers.One of the players,YY,kena =x lolz,.the dialogues*..I translate to english alright?

M:Can I have your number?
YY:I dont have cellphone.
M:Tuhh,your hand is holding the cellphone.
M:Thank you.You guys CUTE lah!and pro in basketball leh.(lolz?hahaha)
(YY really dumb right?hahahas!!In the end,she have to give them anyway =.=)

2nd part,ST,after she heard the malays asking for the numbers,she ran to the burger stall far away from them standing there,guess what,they ran after her XD ,.dialogues*

M:Can I have your number?
ST:I dont have cellphone.
M:You dont use cellphone one?
ST:Got,087,want?
M:Dont want lah,cannot sms also.
ST:If want find me,you can ask my sis,KM,the number that she's using.
KM:You dare give them I sure kill you(in chinese).
ST: *silent*
M:Erm,dont need lah,thank you. *run*
(KM keep nagging ST what she just said,hahaha!!)

3rd part,KM said that the malays and the others also asking for my number,luckily I leave earlier =.= if not I dont know where should I hide already.Damn..even in my hometown also dangerous one =.=

The next morning[10/04/09],KM and ST continue giving them the training,the malay girl message..

M:Blh send ko punya GBR kah?yang cantek2 punya ok?
ALL:*ROFL* ,what she means by the GBR?Is it GAMBERRRrr? (HAHAHA)
YY:You want my picture?
M:Apa itu? (Faint?yea i know~)
YY:Maksud kau gambar sia ke?
M:Yaya,yang cantek2 punya ah.Cute bah kau!
(YY direct feel so GELI,because..a TB telling to a TB that you're CUTE?lolz..)

PS:Sorry peeps =x I know it's very long..just wanna share nia,because it's funny,hahaha!!

ARGH!!!!

2009-04-11T08:21:00.000-07:00

Well,heart broken still continueing,at least I bo express any reaction right?I dont want to make things even worst,or even spoil other peoples mood..What can I say,love is cruel,yet,i'm still here and still keeping our relationship until now,what I did before is that i deserved it,my fault,my mistake,put the blame on me okay?I never said anything it's your fault or what,but you never appreciate or even care what i had been through these whole time.You swear with your own words that you never want to hurt me,but every single day,what you did,it hurts me actually.Where is the gentle of yours?Is it good that you forcing yourself to changed?Is it good that you keeping 2 girls for you?Is it good that stopping me from expressing my feelings?

What you want me to do now?You weren't like the same old you that i knew,and i am telling you the truth,our friends may say you never change,but for me,you are changing more and more like a devil,wanna know why?because i known you since i was 14 until now,what do you expect?I'm telling bunch of craps?I'm so mad and pissed off!!One day if i'm gone crazy,i will spill out every single mad words that full of vulgarities to you,that day,you will know why i'm so mad about you..Tell me,how can i satisfy your misunderstandings about me?I've tried so hard,but you keep pushing me fall to the ground like i can't never stand up anymore,like i dont have any guts to believe myself.I dont know how does it feel of loving you neither loved by you.

You used to laugh alot with me,you used to tell me everything,you used to made the right choices between us.Why arent you now doing the same thing?I used to talk with you and the others alot,i used to make you guys laugh,but now..you guys are not laughing or anything,just sit there and silent few seconds after that you guys talk your own craps,then what i do next that time?I shut myself up!No worries okay?And you even dare to tell me i'm not good in communicating?Said i'm very silent?Seriously WTF is wrong with you??Sometimes i feel like want to hurt myself by punching walls or anything to let it all out,just because i dont want to scold you.

I want to sms you,but ends up waiting for you to sms me.I want to call you,but ends up no guts.I want to go out with you alone,but ends up you want friends to go along.I want to hold you so tight,but i wish i was drunk that time.Falling every single day,trying every single time,forcing to act like nothing between us.

Okay,forget it..what for if i tell you everything,it's not like you will understands me like you used to before.I can tell you that,you're just like the weather,so i cant never know the ending part.The answers is in your hand,but dont compare me between the other one,it's not fair by doing that.After all i done for you,i dont deserves anything also.I just wish that the still real me treating you the same as before,will die.Because,you dont need it anymore.All you want is her.And i'm the only one here alone everytime blessing-waiting-forcing.

*365 days,my heart continue broken to pieces without you*

Not feeling well again

2009-04-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

09/04/09
Planning to go for rebonding,but then,kinda sleepy plus keep going to toilet da bian,but how come my friend didnt keep go da bian?We even ate the same food in cafeteria,weird =.= so,I planned to train moon till she's level 75,but then,mission impossible,just trained her till level 74,too tired plus going to saloon the next day.These few days,body temperature like very hot and weird,like going to faint sometimes.Even I walked like falling soon.

10/04/09
Woke up at 10a.m,early hor?Isnt it amazing?Yes~as usual,king kong is doing her job,the house going down soon,lolz..so I on maple,continue train moon,died alot =.= stupid mob spawn at her spot,but still..already level 75!,grats moon ^^ training stop at 5p.m,I went to take a cool shower,because I sweat alot,hot day ayy?After that,help ben miko aka dustbin to do some research from website for writing an authorise letter.There's this weird feelings,I felt like quitting leveling my DK,for some reasons that i'm lazy.But then,I felt like helping friends on leveling.In the beginning,I got faith in me,but lastly I dont because i'm lazy.Am i weird?it sounds like i prefer to do anything for my friends without them asking me,but what about myself?Felt like dumping myself to a garbage can O.o .I dont like friends helping me because like,very PS bah =.= and yet,I don't know how to face with them after they helped me.Anyway,special thanks to Gin ah gong & Nick kor for helping me train my character when I was out.You guys deserves more than just helping me ~.~ sorry,make you guys tired.

Some of the pictures I ss-ed few days ago XD

Ah gong going to bed that time XD

I like MEOW than just ROAR!!!

Both of them always there for me and protect me =x

I love my pets XD

Firstly,all please wear glasses before start reading my blog =x

2009-04-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

06/04/09[Tournament]
First day of the MSSD tournament,going to be a referee and table official help out.So yea,quite tiring,never slept much,plus need early wake up =.= my weakness,wont wake up early on time,like 7a.m,tournament start at 7.30a.m ,woots~Alright,let's talk about the food that they provided us,1 fried fish,veges and plain rice,yummy?heck no =.= friend,ST:"my pudding taste better than the food!".lolz?hahahas!I guess that proves it all,the food..euwww~

07/04/09[Tournament]
Second day,let's talk about the food they provided to us again =P ,okay..curry on the plain rice,few veges,2 meat..catch my point?means that 1 extra dish =.= lolz?And yet,friend,ST:"Maggie is the best!",hahahas!We all want to bang our heads to the wall,salary already quite low,plus the food..OMG right?More tiring =.= my other friend,Fiona:"your hair looks great,but what's with the eyes[panda eyes]?".Lolz,.direct hide my face XD .Okay,had a competition with 2 of my friends,KM and Ting,3 point shootting contest,guess what..once you lose,do some pumps,countings for the highest scoring.I losed 3 times,the 2 of them,try guess about it?Sprained the back of my leg vein,never do any sports before this =x

08/04/09[Tournament]
Last day,too bad,they didnt provide any food today xP ,hahahas!Today more tiring and sweat alot,because alot mistakes the young ones doing the table official job,so time drag kinda long,actually ends at around 2p.m,but then,ends at 3p.m plus.KM and I,our hairs like dragon ball hairstyle,wanna know why?Because we're kinda mad about our players from[our previous secondary school],their attitude damn worst than us,they think it's our fault from doing mistakes whistle them the fouls,like what for so clean without fouls?Can bring back home?lolz?!Well,they almost lose the game if they kept on nervous,luckily my friend scold them so loud infront of the crowds,haha!Go ST go ST GOOO!Conclusion is?Still,our school won again,hahas..Congratulations guys.But,you guys think you all good in basketball?In Keningau lah idiots,you havent seen the others from other country,Keningau thumbs up* ,outside?thumbs down* ya'all,fuck..stop showing off now then,unless you guys bring the 1st place back alright?okay,enough with that,I sprained my feet vein =.= woots!Walk like a duck..

Candy's big blast megas celebrated for the 3 years anniversary =x

2009-04-06T10:47:00.000-07:00

06/04/09
Take down some of the pictures XD

Sorry uh =x not quite good in editing pictures =.= as long you guys can see clearly bah =x

Kor buy the weather to add abit while taking SS

Again~lolz,.he loves us F3

And yea,this one..really funny,dont know what lai de,suddenly all emoticons auto come out without pressing any =.=

Actually the interview of unchangegal and peaceplease were there<<< , when my kor put the weather around gin and I,all run come play also,hahahahas!Like there's alot gold dropping XD

Because of want to celebrate Candy's birthday,went for the tournament the next morning,like walking in my sleeps =.= everyone asked,"are you awake?" lolz,.ahaha XD

FINALLY!

2009-04-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

yay!after 5/6 days,finally done fixing and editing my blog!Thanks to Sha,Miko[another dumbass],Nick Kor and GG for helping me.I can say that I bothered them too much just because of my blog >.< ps ya'all~And yet,.I'M BACK TO BLOGGING PEEPS!!Because I have so much want to post out,i'm tired of thinking the answers and questions myself!argh!Alrighty,I have to prepare to work now..ciaoz~

2008-03-19T12:02:00.000-07:00

Whao..it has been a long time never update my blog -_-''' lolz..
anyway..my typical days..like almost the same impression only..
doing same stuff and no where else to go..
owh yea,this saturday gonna have a friendly match(basketball) with my teammates,.
cool~can sweat alot ^^ after that our organiser will bring us go drink BEER,wahahaha!
hopefully i can have fun and dont need to think alot~
maybe after this week,i'll be working at the comic book shop with one of my friend,
yay ^^can read comic,FREE,tomorrow 2p.m going for an interview,wish me luck~ ^^v
hungry leh -_-''' now it's already 2a.m+,7a.m gonna practice basketball with the others~
okay then,that's all for now~bubye ^^

P.S:ah gong(gin),sakai sha,joo dar,moon dar,sapo(cheryl),purple(qiwen)~take good care of ya'all health ah ^^

2008-03-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

好烦!!i'm facing alot of terrible things..made myself so emo when back home,but if i'm out there,always trying to maintain my smile,it's hard to lie to myself,but it's no used to spill it out,not everything it's possible from what you thought would be,since the day i came back to my hometown,slept at 12a.m woke up at 6-7a.m+,it's really bothers me,made me so tired,but why can't i sleep well during the night?maybe everytime the dreams bothering me,like every midnight i would woke up and i can feel that my heart beating so fast,my dreams not scary but it's all because of him,everytime seen him,made me wanna hold him so tight and never let go of him,but it's a waste..he found someone,.but then,last night i lied to him that i wanna go back home earlier,too tired,that time were only 9.30p.m+,he went back,sent two of my teammates back,but not sherry,i ask her to accompany me drink a while,because..my heart beats so fast that made me so hard to breath,my mind so blur,dont know what to do..i felt like crying,but i dont want to make myself weak,trying to hold the sadness,talked 2 hours there,back home..around 1a.m+,he told me that they broke up,i know i'm the one cause it,i shouldnt find him,now there's a betrayer told lots of nonsence to his gf,i was so worried this morning that will he go to work alone?because this morning he never ask me about wanna go along with him or not,i quickly changed my clothe and everything then drive to the place that he works,hide my car beside the tree,waited 30minutes for him to come out,and there he was~thought i'm late,followed behind of his car,reach the road that kinda hard for me to get pass with my car,then i went to the temple,that it has been almost 1-2 years never visit that place,i pray for him,that every tomorrow he'll be smiling and never let himself felt so DOWN,it's hard to deal with your love ones who doesnt trust either trusted,i know how he felt ,because he made me to,now..all my friends supporting that both of us would back together again,they cheering for me,but i can't do it..i'm scared that bad things might happen next,i dont want to see his face,like everything in him feeling BLUE..i can't make up my mind,but..i will still be the same to be there for him whenever he needs me,either work or anything,and..i will still be waiting for him,now..the choices it's in his hand,take care~

2008-02-27T10:36:00.000-08:00

晚上七点半左右,在一个店喝茶,
一杯酒是他的,一杯酒是我的,
他就找话题说了,一个一个的告诉我,
一阵子,他就停,
我没说什么,就看着他,
他哪双脸,眼睛在东张西望,
我不是不想说话,我只想听他的声音,
不久他又开始,我边听边笑,
他高兴的时侯,我看不到,
他伤心的时侯,我都不在,
很想牵你的手,但我不要伤害令一个的她,
他现在属于了她,我就只是他的朋友,
他口话说中的一切,他已然还是很爱我,
可是为了她,他不想伤害她,
而我也不想伤害他,就只能关心他,
我会等他,等你回到我的怀抱里,
就算我辛苦,但为了他,我愿意.
我回来了,
说为了他,会被说傻,
说为了压力,也会被其他说傻,
只好别说原因,我要找回我拥有的一切,
也许很许要很多的时间,但是,
感情应该才开始,游戏应该有结局,
每一天都对自己说加油,别放气,
免得我会在后悔多一次,
酒快完了,那阵子.
是他第一天对我说了很多话..
我相信他,我会一直在等他.

2008-02-26T11:15:00.000-08:00

我对你说分手,
我的却是舍不的,
原因说的来很长,
让音乐解释给你明白.

我说的一切,
也许你和别人都怪我,
谎言慢慢的传,
音乐就会告诉你真相.

我的话题引起了不少你的烦恼,
你叫我闭嘴就走,
"对不起,我的错"
只好靠着音乐跟你说.

我的笑容你却没发觉,
我一直都在说我爱你,
不让你知道我伤心,
音乐就代替我对你说.

虽然你不在是我的了,
现在你的回忆代替了过去,
过去的回忆,
就只有音乐能让你想起.

2008-02-22T08:05:00.000-08:00

6p.m went out with 2 of my friends,yam cha at little taiwan cafe,chit chat about a topic then after that..silence night..because we've got nothing to talk about already,then my friend said play cards,gamble..ahaha,9 points card game,hhhmm..i love it but my friend make the rules kinda difficult to win money,oh well..since i'm bored..might as well play then,my 5 bucks leh..keep leaving and came back my side,zz..another game even more easier to lose money,i lose 10 bucks in just few rounds only!!zz..then i dont want play le,don't like the stupid rules that they make..around 9p.m,my college friends came to yam cha at the same place,great..questioning me again,haiz~but i just answer them that ''I got something to do'',hahaha!after my friends left,i went to sit with my college friends,they not allow me to go back home that early,chit chat and play cards with them until 11p.m,i'm glad that 1 of my classmate finally got the girl that he always likes her,he bring his gf yam cha with me and the others too,kinda cute ^^ good for you Ah Lun..Then i never expected that my classmate Loong Pao broke up with his gf last valentine's day,i can see that he's very frust,he blame himself for not doing the right thing,he tells me alot just now,i felt sorry for him,.plus he's sick and confused,he even told me that these few days kept on going out and drink beer..gosh..maybe love can drive people nuts..after that,he make a condition with his ex,and i think that,.can make him happy a bit from what he told his ex,his ex accept the condition..now all he can do is just wait for the girl's choice,.Good luck Loong Pao ^^ if you ever need accompany just gimme a call..at that moment,i was happy to see all my friends had alot of fun and able to see their smiles after went through alot of problems,glad for them ^^ hopefully we can still go out sometimes when you guys free,miss you guys so much ^^ muacks!!

yay!tomorrow going back to my hometown for 2 days,i can attend the gathering with my old classmates too ^^ and then i even can see my teammate that just came back from work in London,but pity that i can't attend 1 of my teammate birthday party,because monday i'm coming back again,.Owh yea..another big challenge for me to deal with is i have to talk to my dad about quitting my studies in temporary until i get my driving licence and decrease my pressure..Oh god T.T gimme strenght to tell everything to my dad and hope he will accept my choices T.T A.M.E.N*HALLELUJAH*

Again~

2008-02-21T12:54:00.000-08:00

5a.m in the morning,just finish play maple,feel tired but can't sleep,it seems like the way i sleep were during day time,night time like do my own activities one.Sis even said my eyes worst than a panda -_-''' splendid..got any other choice for me to sleep even longer?everytime only slept like about 3-4 hours..Thank goodness that my sis support of my decissions,all i need to do is talk to my parents,.well..hopefully won't get scold somehow -_-''' hhmm..this saturday i'm going back to my hometown with my sis,and glad that i'm able to attend the gathering of 2006 form 5 students,hope that more of my class friends attend and not the other class like science stream,some of the people i hate to say this but..you guys really sux sometimes,if not because don't want to embarrass my parents of black list,i would have slap you guys on the face!Tiss tiss~
Afternoon have to go to college to see one of my lecturer,HAIZ!!!hopefully my friends and my subject lecturer won't seen me =x or else i'm dead with bunch of questioning,haha..Feel like wanna play basketball again with my teammates,missing the time we travel around the country and met alot of new friends,eventhough still kinda tough for me to deal again,gosh,.need a long time to learn back all the skills -_-''' eh..that means..more easier for me to diet?!?wahahahaha!!!GREAT!!!eh..but then..will have muscle again -_-''' zzz...haiz,.don't care le!!!make our country proud again with all the trophy's we will get next time!G.A.M.B.A.T.E.H ,.

ARGH!BORED!I TRY TO GET SOME SLEEP!SWEET DREAMS YA'ALL!!

Brain not functioning,.

2008-02-18T01:38:00.000-08:00

hhhmmm...don't know how to tell my dad that i wanna quit my studies just in temporary,last night holding my phone for quite long enough,but then dont dare to dial up to my dad's number,haiz..eventhough heard their conversations yesterday,but still..i think i will get scold,i wasn't lazy,too under pressure because i'm not able to finish my homework on time,sometimes my lecturer wanna have a outdoor sketching,i can't attend because of no transport,both sis using the car,i dont dare to ride a bus,well..you know,gurls might scared of it -_-''' haiz,.tonight..i'm gonna try to talk to my dad about it..hopefully i can make my own choices this time,GOD BLESS ME T.T hallelujah!!!!!!!!

Let's see...

2008-02-17T02:40:00.000-08:00

STILL BORED! -_-''' but sleep quite long enough today,if not because of no electricity -_-''' luckily today quite freezing one,heard my dad and sis conversations,kinda funny,but still the same,talks about me,haha..my sis told my dad that i'm not functioning well these few weeks lately O.o my dad said if i can't stand with all the stress,i can quit my studies,glad to hear,i've been waiting for him to say that since last year,it doesnt mean that i'm a quitter,but there's something that i need to take care of,i've told few of my friends about it,but i'm glad that they support with whatever my decission was,thanks guys ^^ it really means alot to me,yay!!going out yamcha with one of my friend soon,starbucks!wahahaha!!!can't wait =x it's like few days never went out already XD ..

hhmm..wondering where did Sakai Sha gone to,never seen her on maple in few days already,hope she's alright,.SAKAI SHA!!ARE YOU STILL ALIVE???? XD gosh,.bad sia =x

Boring..

2008-02-16T04:30:00.000-08:00

bored bored bored!!!
Nothing to do,one whole day sitting and watching the laptop screen,play maple also don't know want do what -_-''' want go out also can't,both sis drive the 2 cars out,great~keep drink vitagen,eat cookies,zz..somemore,my sis came back and hug+kiss me on the cheek,aaarrrrhhh!!!yucks!!!Ah gong!what you laughing there ah f5 f5 f5 zzz..poison kiss,.more pimples at that spot,splendid...zzzz....

First Blog -_-'''

2008-02-15T13:10:00.000-08:00

Great..first blog..I just write then.

Yoz~!!!!Chinese New Year just passed,hopefully ya'all have a great time celebrate-enjoy-memories of it,unlikely mine -_-''' kinda sucks and bored somehow but at least i get to see my old teammates.And I know Joo and Sha 's gonna kill me because..I missed the gathering with'em =x ahaha..forgive me -_-''' time goes fast,now it's already 2008,and there's alot of things we cannot see it unless we're there,school starts,everyone busy doing project-homework-assignment need to be done,and i'm the only one here skip almost 1 month of school and more things I havent done,soon will get suspended from school XD hahaha!I do really wish time could turn back and get something that we wanted but it's useless,because you'll never knew how to responsible neither recorrect what you've done,so it's better to let it go and do what's right for now.Zz..seriously..I don't know what i write!messy -_-''' now..about maple..hhhmmm..alot of maplers quitting and alot maplers been hacked,bla bla..soon will be my turn to quit(again),sometimes feel that kinda bored,but..alot of friends I met from maple,I guess wouldn't be that BORED afterall.Owh yea~speaking of chocolate,valentine's day also sucks this 2008 =x yea yea,.I did received something but it's not want I want,just wish that could celebrate valentine's day with my old teammates,missing'em alot.

p.s:
Gin-Ah gong,get more rest lah~
Sha-Sakai,stop making youself miserable~
Joo-Joo dar,get well soon~
Moon-Moon dar,wait for me hor,we'll seen each other soon enough~
Others-Do please take care and ..MUST MISS ME HOR,dream of me would be fine XD